Liebster, Revisited: Part 3 of 3: How I Met the Hubs. And Shoes.

Posted on September 9, 2015 by KatieComeBack

For those of you just tuning in now, this is the third and final installation of the challenge presented to me by sonofabeach96, who kindly nominated me for the Liebster Award:

(You can find Part 1, and Da Rulz, HERE. Part 2 is HERE.)

Eleven simple questions, eleven long, convoluted answers. Okay, I swear this is the final chapter in this disjointed series. Then we can move along to something interesting, like politics, paint drying, taxes, or landscaping.

<snurk>

So, the rest of the questions:

What is your favorite vacation destination, and where would you want to travel if money were no object?

I actually haven’t really had many vacations, other than to see family. Which, as much as I love them, doesn’t count, because being around family requires you to wear heavy, impenetrable armor, and after a few days, it just wears a gal down.

But I do have a couple of dream vacations. I want to visit the West Coast (the last time I was there, I was sorely tempted to cancel my return ticket) and see mountains, ocean, and giant redwoods. (Oh, and yeah, a few wineries.) I want to take a cruise to Alaska. And I’d like to eventually visit Hawaii, because it’s both warm AND beautiful.

But the thought of being on a plane for four or five hours exhausts me – I’ve had several jobs where I’ve had to travel a lot – like 75% – and they’ve sucked all the glamour out of travel and basically ruined me for airports for life.

If money were no object, I’d sit in first class, and I expect it’d be a heckuva lot nicer. Plus there’d be no hurry to return. So maybe, in that case, I’d squeeze in a side jaunt to Australia.

BECAUSE KANGAROOS.

If you’re married, how did you meet your spouse?

The story behind my “starter spouse” is, unfortunately, not all that interesting. We were in college together and married right after graduation.* Very typical, very average. And, just like everyone** else, we got divorced a few years later.

*Technically, I was three credits shy of graduation. Details, details….I did finish three years later.

**I actually only know one couple who married right after college and stayed married. Actually, she was my roommate and he was my ex’s roommate, so they spent a good bit of time together somewhat by default, and eventually decided to be a couple. We always thought they were really odd together – culturally, spiritually, physically, personality-wise – they just never appeared as a matching set. As the Brits would say – cheese and chalk. But then again, who really had a good man-picker in college, anyway? Clearly not EVERYONE ELSE who wound up divorced. Twenty-plus years later, I guess they WERE the odd couple, at least in tenacity.

The story behind the hubs is much juicier.

Fast forward a few years. I’m going through a divorce and juggling a new job. In the midst of dividing up a life’s worth of possessions and trying to establish a “new normal”…I met someone.

It was a lousy time to begin a relationship – all the experts on divorce recovery will tell you “take time for yourself” and “don’t rush into something new.” But I was never great at following a vague “they say” (or, for that matter, any voice of authority.) Plus, I was enjoying my freedom – I had recently come to discover that my first spouse was mentally abusive (and likely suffering from some sort of personality disorder. We flunked out of three therapists (which is a story for another time) so I never found out for sure. Suffice it to say that if it walks like a duck, it ain’t a donut.)

And this was not the relationship to start, for a number of reasons. In addition to the fact that it was a long-distance relationship, he simply wasn’t available, and neither he nor I knew the difference between drama and love. So while there was admittedly a lot of passion, it was the over-inflated extremist version that would rival any long-running soap on afternoon TV. And I hadn’t learned enough about relationships to understand that while, on paper, he appeared to be the polar opposite of my ex (physically, politically, socially, etc.,) the reality was that they shared some startlingly similar personality traits (controlling, belittling, demeaning) that I failed to recognize until the bitter, melodramatic termination of the relationship.

And we pretty much had nothing in common, save loneliness. Hard to build a long-term bond on the absence of something.

I didn’t marry that guy. (Although, we looked at rings, and I bought a dress – which, after several moves, is currently sitting in a local consignment shop, tags still on it, ready to complete YOUR dream wedding!) But I did endure about two years of emotional highs and lows, the soaring and plummeting of which would earn the envy and admiration of amusement park thrill ride engineers globally.

To further complicate matters, I had just been offered another job 900 miles away, in this guy’s metro area.

Kismet! This was MEANT TO BE!

(Maybe.)

And then we broke up. Again.

My sister decided that enough was enough, and perhaps I could try to meet someone else. With renewed resolve, I reactivated my online dating profile (it had been created, utilized, and deactivated several times between our frequent breakups and reconciliations – you know, for added entertainment and histrionics -) and changed my location to my pending address.

Ahhhh. A fresh start, a new city, a clean slate, a whole new buffet of man candy. My sister and I clicked through profiles, evaluating and reviewing each one. (Side note: Online dating is like shoe shopping. You can sift through a ton online, but until you walk in them a while, you really don’t have any idea whether they’ll actually work with your wardrobe and your lifestyle.)

A profile popped up. “Ooh! He’s cute. His ears are kind of big. But he’s cute. Click him!”

So I did. And I liked what I read: He sounded intelligent and honest. Plus, he was cute. Waaaaay out of my league cute. But…what the heck? My last boyfriend was fond of saying, “You miss all the shots you don’t take.” So I shot.

I composed a message – I commented on a few things he listed in his profile, and closed with, “I think peeling some mental onions with you could prove interesting.”

He said he fell for me right there. (Aww. <barf>)

So what happened to the other guy? Well, he did try to get me back. (No one saw THAT coming, right?) His argument was – I kid you not – “We weren’t really broken up. We were just taking a break. We were supposed to get back together in a couple of months. You weren’t supposed to meet someone else and fall in love.”

(Sorry. Couldn’t resist.)

I’m embarrassed to admit that he and I briefly got back together one more time before the hubs and I became exclusive. But our final breakup was empowering – I used my words, and my voice, and by ceremoniously dumping him, I was able to purge my soul of both him and my ex-spouse, and define how I deserved to be treated.

(Odd how it sounds like much of my eating disorder. Like I “had” to stuff myself with pizza and ice cream one last time before I started The Official Diet. Hmm. Gonna have to think about that one.)

After the final fireworks died out and the audience went home, I emailed my now-hubs, told him I’d love to see him again, and the rest is history. And while we’ve had some challenges over the last year, it would be unfair of me not to mention that he’s been absolutely amazing lately. He’s trying so very hard and has put in some tremendous effort after I was clear with him about what was so troublesome – especially lately. (Funny how that works in healthy adult relationships….you rationally and calmly state what you need, and you get it. It really can be that easy.)

P.S. The dating site I used? Don’t laugh. Plenty of Fish. It’s free. Which means…well, you know what it means. The hubs often tells people that he found me in the “FREE” box at a yard sale. <snort>

Describe your personality and what type of people are you drawn to?

I think I’m drawn to people who have the traits I like in myself. So, here’s my list:

I like funny people who can laugh at themselves, but not at the expense of others. (Well, maybe a little.) <snurk>
I like people who have opinions they’re not afraid to use – as long as they use their ears and their brains as effectively as their mouths.
Bonus points if you have great shoes. BECAUSE SHOES.

Speaking of which – here’s my latest haul. Enjoy!

My most expensive shoes are my running shoes….

GOLD SHOES. TWELVE DOLLARS. SCORE.

These just make me happy. Lipstick for the feet!

Liebster, Revisited: Part 2 of 3: High School Never Ends, Cars, and Christmas Trees

Posted on September 7, 2015 by KatieComeBack

This is a continuation of my last post, where I started responding to sonofabeach96’s nomination of me for a Liebster Award:

Because I’m the verbal equivalent of Niagara Falls, I couldn’t get it all into one post. So here are three more of the questions…and three more long-winded answers:

What were your high school days like? Good, bad, or indifferent and why?

On the surface, high school wasn’t that bad. I wasn’t really bullied. I had friends. I was involved in every music activity our small district had available. I got excellent grades.

But it’s hard to reminisce about high school without noting, as a point of reference, where I was with my eating disorder. It’s like having a sterile, undisturbing stock photo of a smiling family set inside a dusty, chipped, weather-beaten picture frame.

The story’s in the setting, not the scene.

Ninth grade started with a bang, because <dramatic pause> I met a boy. When you’re fourteen, this is typical. When you’re fourteen and chubby, and he likes you back, it’s life-changing. He was older (by one year – oh, the SCANDAL!) and was (of COURSE!) as thin as a rail with a sky-high metabolism. (Seriously – weren’t they all?) I coasted through most of freshman year with a lot of “firsts” – first kiss, first date, first formal – and, for the first time since fifth grade, didn’t focus too much on my weight.

I ended my first year of high school wearing a size 11 and weighing about 145.

And then summer hit. And with the heat came last year’s clothes that were way, way too small. And by August, I was appalled to discover that my marching band uniform had shrunk. Significantly.

Now, as an adult, I can objectively look back and see that truly, I was pretty much “normal.” Probably a bit chubby, especially compared to the track stars and cheerleaders. But surely I didn’t stand out as the fattest kid in the class. I understand intellectually that I didn’t look all that different from my classmates – to this day, when I occasionally page through an old yearbook, it never fails to strike me how downright NORMAL I appear.

But at the time? I was FAT. And Something Had To Be Done About That.

I knew all too well what worked. I quit eating.

I started tenth grade a good 25 pounds less than I had ended freshman year. I walked into my first day of my sophomore year with my size 7 jeans hanging off me.

Bolstered by success and compliments from my classmates, I kept going. I kept going despite occasional blackouts. Despite a blood pressure of 80/40. Despite lectures from the school nurse. Despite missing family meals. Despite peer praise turning to worry. Despite bodily functions ceasing to exist. Despite my (new) boyfriend begging me to eat.

I finally settled in at just barely over 100 pounds, logging every calorie and measuring every morsel of food (including mustard and Crystal Light – I was hardcore, bro).

This was my existence for the next two years.

Outwardly, things looked to be great – I was thin, I was active in music stuff, I had a boyfriend who loved me dearly and was going to take care of me ALWAYS, and as long as I controlled my body and the food I put into it, I was safe and secure.

Then, during my first semester as a senior, my boyfriend – my first love, the boy who swore he’d marry me one day and would love me forever – unceremoniously dumped me. (Because college, ya know.) Suddenly, after over two years of coasting in the shade, the sun was beating down on me, burning off the fog and forcing its bright, harsh light directly into my eyes, commanding my pupils to constrict as my eyes ached from pained, constant squinting.

With absolutely no idea how to cope, I started to eat.

Once the dam broke, it was impossible to stop the flood. I gained fifty pounds the last half of senior year, as I filled the time with extracurricular activities (read: boys) trying to find my self-worth while simultaneously feeding my starving soul with anything I could get my hands on. (Unfortunately, I was feeding it the equivalent of onion rings and Twinkies. But I had to start somewhere.)

I left for college in the fall with the Bright Future of weighing 170 pounds and having absolutely no idea what to do with my life.

So…yeah. High school was…high school.

And here I am, ~~twenty-five~~ over twenty years later, still wrestling the same pigs and getting just as dirty. True, I have cuter shoes and no boa. But still….

What was your first car?

The first car that was actually MINE was a 1991 Chevy Lumina. I’d love to say it was a sweet ride, but the only people to say that about this car is the bluehair-and-Bingo set.

I mean…just…gaaaah:

Photo courtesy of https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chevrolet_Lumina

Really makes a statement, doesn’t it? In addition to its edgy, bad@ss look, it also featured a speedometer that pegged at a hairnet-blowing 85mph. Which is totally un-American, and un-German, and un-everything-under-age-seventy.

So why did I have this? Well, as is the case with most first cars, I wasn’t actually involved in picking it out. It actually came into my possession courtesy of my now-ex-in-laws.

See, my former mother-in-law cleaned houses for a living – generally for the elderly. Consequently, they often paid her in either quarters, baked goods, or castoff clothing.

Still, she persisted. We think she was hoping that someday, one of her clients would kick the bucket and mention her in the will.

That never happened.

But, since most of her customers were in their late eighties, they did hop the heaven bus to harp lessons on occasion. And, as the stereotypes dictate, they often left behind an older, low-miles vehicle – which she’d then volunteer to buy, at a bargain price, from the grieving family.

I kid you not.

(I guess it’s a small reward for choking down loaf after loaf of soggy, well-intentioned pumpkin bread.)

At the time, my then-spouse and I were newlyweds – and I had finally, after years of resistance*, learned to drive. So we needed a second car, and this one met all of our requirements and qualifications (read: it ran and it was cheap.) It wasn’t exactly hip and trendy, but it was only a couple of years old with less than 15,000 miles on it. SOLD! I drove that sucker into the ground, tooling around in it until we eventually popped out some offspring and traded it in for a minivan.

*Side note: I didn’t actually learn to drive until I was 24. Why? Well, if you asked me directly, I’d tell you, as I flipped my hair and narrowed my eyes coyly, “I always had a boy or two to drive me around.” That was partially true; I also had an older brother and a younger sister who were more than happy to play chauffeur. But the truth? I’m hopelessly uncoordinated, easily distracted, and a champion procrastinator. Plus, I wanted to spend my babysitting dinero on clothes and shoes, not gas and insurance. Priorities, ya know.

What is the one thing that grates on your last nerve?

OK, there is NO WAY I can only pick only one thing. I talked about a few Things I Hate in the Love/Hate Challenge (which took me SIX posts. I am ridiculous.)

But out of all those posts, there was one thing I missed that absolutely drives me to shoot fire from my face holes and rant in unholy tongues.

It’s Christmas lights that BLINK IN SECTIONS.

They don’t twinkle. They don’t flutter off and on to music. They just ALL flip on and off AT THE SAME TIME, like some idiot minion is half-wittedly turning the switch off and on, off and on.

Off. On. Off. On.

These are usually at the house that’s hung just one string, usually lining a roof or a window. Or part of a roof. Or half a window. Or until the string of lights just ran out.

THEY’RE LIGHTS THAT DON’T EVEN TRY.

And please note – when I say “you didn’t try,” I have a pretty high threshold for what I consider gallant effort. Witness our family Christmas Tree a few years ago:

Shout out to Problems with Infinity (http://problemswithinfinity.com/) – see? SEE?!?

Yes. It’s a stuffed frog and a pool noodle. BUT IT SAYS “TREE” SO IT’S LEGIT. And I didn’t have to step on a single needle. I WIN.

This tree is creative and unique (and affordable, I might add!) But lights that blink in sections? It’s like Christmas just gave up. It’s Christmas sadness.

Don’t be that house. Don’t be the Holiday Spirit Slayer. Leave your lights on, in all their energy-sapping, glowing glory. Your neighbors will shovel your walkways and bring you cookies, and there will be world peace and harmony.

Or, at least, I won’t have to violently hurl the Fruitcake of Christmas Past through your front window.

Liebster, Revisited: Part 1 of 3: History of My Career

Posted on September 6, 2015 by KatieComeBack

Recently (OK, it’s been a couple of weeks, because summer, yo!) sonofabeach96 was kind enough to nominate me for a Liebster Award:

This feels a little bit like cheating, because I actually won one of these before, and wrote about aliens and my cat. But this one is a different COLOR, and like shoes THAT MAKES IT TOTALLY DIFFERENT so I’ll make room.

Before I dig in, lemme tell ya about sonofabeach96 – he writes about life and family, and seasons his posts liberally with great music. He’s a good read, so go check him out. kthx

DA RULZ:

Make a post thanking and linking the person who nominated me and include the Liebster Award sticker in the post.
Nominate 5-10 other bloggers and notify them of this in one of their posts.
All nominated bloggers are to have less than 200 followers.
Answer the 11 questions posed by your nominator and create 11 different questions for your nominees to answer. Or, you can repeat the same questions.
Copy these rules into your post.

And now for the questions, which are sure to provide fascinating insight into the mental supply closet that is my psyche….

(Some of these are repeats, so I hope y’all don’t mind some backwards links. Actually, I think I’ll list those questions first, just to get them checked off.)

What is your favorite movie and why? I have two: Hitch and The Incredibles. You can read why here.

Do you believe in an afterlife and/or ghosts? Oh yes indeedy. Here’s THAT post.

Describe your family and its dynamic. I think most of it, and how it plays into the ~~hot mess~~ accomplished, mature professional I am today, can be found HERE.

And now, some new stuff:

What is your career and is it what you’ve always wanted to do or did you just fall into it?

I work in Human Resources. NO ONE wants to work in HR when they grow up. No one even really knows what that IS, honestly. I think “human resources” comes from an ancient Gaelic term meaning “shoveling employee drama that stinketh like elephant droppings”.

Getting into HR was a total accident. The kind where you’re juggling hot coffee and a plate of danishes, and your stiletto catches in the sidewalk, thrusting you rather violently and ungracefully into the cement, resulting in 1) hot coffee all over your white blouse, 2) scuffing your heel up beyond any hope of repair*, 3) tearing holes in the knees of the ONE pair of pants that don’t make your thighs look like they need their own zip code, and 4) all the pastries you were carrying landing sticky-side down in the dirt. (Krispy Kreme redefined. Bleck.)

*what nail polish and a Sharpie can fix. (Don’t judge.)

When I was a kid, I wanted to be a meteorologist. (OK, to be fair, not a lot of kids have THAT dream, either.)

I started college with no idea what I wanted to do for a living, and ended up gravitating towards education. (Hey, I’d spent twelve years in school, it was the one thing I knew about. I really wanted to study diet and nutrition, since that was the OTHER thing I knew about, but as a fat freshman, I didn’t think I’d be all that believable, so…. Voila! Education it is!) Unfortunately, after a fairly significant investment of four years and 175 credits, I learned in my last semester (during student teaching) that, while I enjoyed the actual TEACHING part of the job, I just could not stomach school politics.

The last straw? I gave a kid a D in music class, and his dad threatened to kill me. Note – the kid EARNED that D, refusing to participate, or listen, or do anything. Essentially, he was a little a$$hole. And his dad came to the school and told me I’d better think twice about keeping his precious little groinfruit off the honor roll, because he’d hate for me to be found dead in the park across the street like that 13-year-old girl they found there six weeks ago….(and I’m like, yeah…that totally just happened.)

I’m SURE this kid is enjoying a lucrative career now, thanks to Daddy’s stellar influence. Somewhere that serves french fries. If he’s not in prison.

The kicker? The principal said I should consider the guy’s offer. Uh no. Little Lucifer got his D, and I washed my hands of the mess of trying to mold tomorrow’s society. (Epilogue: it broke all by itself without my help.)

Unfortunately, when you study teaching but decide to pursue other careers, you really don’t have too many other readily marketable skills. However, I had worked in college for the Conference Services department, managing the ins and outs of various camps and classes in the summer. (Yes…”band camp”. And cheer camp and choir camp and art camp and robotics camp and football camp and pretty much everything else camp.) So, with the handy skills of distributing keys, collecting payment, and working holidays under my belt, I got a job working the front desk at a hotel.

Hotels are crazy businesses. Because people stay there, and people are nuts, especially after dark, and times fifty when you add in “I’m on vacation!” and alcohol. For example – did you know that the reason there’s no roof access from hotel stairwells is because people go there to jump off? There’s a whole book of “wow, people are totes craybeans” procedures around all kinds of stuff like that.

Unfortunately, employees aren’t much better, so eventually we had to fire someone for absenteeism or stealing food or sleeping with a guest or something, and no one wanted to deliver the message. Which stumped me. I mean, with all the crazy sauce the guests were slinging everywhere, employee discipline seemed like a fairly logical progression:

flowchartfired Simple. No guesswork here; I was just telling them they had arrived at the end of the chart, right? This wasn’t complicated, or difficult…yet no one wanted to do it. I guess they were afraid the person would be…angry? Cry? <eyeroll> Whatever. Just gimme the phone, Nancy-pants.

And that is how I got into HR.

Quickly, I became a pro at terminations. Which served me well, career-wise – after working in manufacturing for 20 <gulp> years, and with all the ups and downs of the economy, and its myriad permutations of rightsizing and downsizing and layoffs and restructuring – not to mention the occasional employee bad behavior (and yes, there are some GREAT stories there…but we’ll save those for another day) I have had to fire literally hundreds of people.

At one company, we (read: I) went through six rounds of layoffs in fourteen months. And I sat through them all.

One by one.

It was…sucktacular.

If you could be anything, career-wise, what would you choose to do and why?

HR, of course.

I actually have a plan for this. Once I ~~can afford to retire HAHAHA who am I kidding~~ win Powerball and become independently wealthy, I’m totally quitting HR for good. I’ve told my coworkers, and my boss, this very thing – the moment I can afford to no longer work, Kate will turn into a puff of smoke and a screech of tires. <poof>

My actual exit will be more subtle, though. Because once I’m a bazillionaire, I need to fade into the sunset so people aren’t hitting me up for cash. So one day, I’ll leave for lunch (which I have done maybe three times in as many years) and simply won’t come back. My coworkers will start to miss me later in the afternoon:

“Uh…where’d Kate go?”

“Gosh, you know, I haven’t seen her in a few hours….Wait. Didn’t she say she was going to lunch?”

“Yeah…which is weird because she, like, never goes to lunch. She usually eats her six Cheerios at her desk.”

Eventually, one of them will text me, and I’ll simply reply “still at lunch.” Which, a week later, will be freaking hilarious. Right??

But I digress.

So my dream job? I’ll learn to play guitar and sing folk songs in coffee houses and wine shops around the city. I guess that isn’t really a job. But I don’t care, because I’m independently wealthy now, and your rules no longer apply to me. Neener neener.

I’ll continue answering the rest of the questions in another post….because by now, your nether-regions have likely fallen asleep, and you probably need to get up and stretch.

But without further ado…here are my nominees:

NOTE: This is a zero-obligation nomination. I swear my feelings will not be hurt if you don’t do this. It’s just a way to give y’all a shout-out and say thanks for hanging your mental skivvies out on the line for all of us to gawk at. Heh. 😉

But if you’re game….here are YOUR eleven questions – certain to provoke riveting and inspiring trinkets for conversational fodder…. 😉

Describe for me your favorite piece of jewelry.
Regarding #1, tell me where you got it, and who gets it in the will.
What food should be made illegal, and why?
In exactly fourteen words, tell me how you feel about clowns.
Tell me how you got that scar. (Pick your favorite.)
What’s something you enjoy eating that others might find odd?
What’s your favorite thing to look at/see in the sky?
What’s the most interesting thing you’ve found while outside? Jewelry, money…?
What’d you do with what you found in #8?
Have you ever stolen anything? Besides my heart. <barf>
Have you ever won anything?

Enjoy, kids. 😀

You…Should Take the Segway….

Posted on August 29, 2015 by KatieComeBack

As far as earworms go, this is a decent one to have. 🙂

So in my quest to get outside of myself a little bit and try new things, I stumbled upon the opportunity to try out a Segway.

Wait…a what?

A Segway is basically an electric scooter – except it doesn’t have a seat. You stand on this contraption and lean backward or forward to make it go or stop. The thing is designed with computerized sensors and gyroscopes that somehow sense your motions and respond accordingly.

Which I read as “the computer will SMELL YOUR FEAR and laugh maniacally as it pitches you violently to the ground.”

The Segway whistles innocently as it searches for a place to bury the body.

It looks pretty menacing. And, for the record, the dude who bought the company in 2010 was promptly thrown off a cliff by one of his products. TRUE STORY BRO.

But, on the other hand, thousands of people ride these things every year. I see Security zipping around the airport and the mall on Segways all the time. And many major metropolitan areas have local tours, given while riding Segways.

So…how bad can it be? If you can chuck a group of jet-lagged novices on these, and generally have a reasonable expectation that you’ll end the tour with the same number of people you started with, it’s gotta be somewhat safe…right?

I located a local Segway tour and signed myself and my son up. (My daughter wasn’t all that interested. Plus, this way, if my son and I perished in a terrible Segway fire, there’d be someone to inherit my jewelry.)

My son was mildly interested in trying the Segway. He was decidedly less interested in the tour itself, however. (He’s 15. Can you blame him?) Most of the available tours feature historical sites – “historical” coming from the ancient Greek word meaning “boring crap your grandpa won’t shut up about” – so I decided to sign us up for the sculpture tour, instead. I figured that was our best bet – buildings might not be all that exciting to a teenager, but an unusual sculpture might get at least a “blink and shrug.” Or just a blink. (Like I said, he’s 15. I set my expectations accordingly.)

The day of our tour was hot – it was about 90. (Which I actually love, because I’m always cold. I recognize that pretty much everyone else is dying when it gets that hot, but I just stand outside and soak that shiz up.) Because it was stupid hot, my son and I were the only two people signed up for the tour that day. BONUS – undivided attention!

There are a few things you have to do before they’ll let you tool around on the Segway. Those bad boys can zoom up to 12.5mph, so safety first, right? You have to watch a safety video, put a helmet on, and…um…something else I think I missed because I was finishing level 432 on Candy Crush. Then you can take off on the official tour.

But before they make you invest all that time in safety, they give you a quick trial on the thing, to make sure you aren’t a complete lost cause on the balance front. (Which is nice, because generally, gravity hates me, and sometimes, when I’m trying something completely off the rails like, I dunno, WALKING, the ground jumps up completely at random to slap some sense into me.)

(Hmm. I wonder if someone called ahead and warned them about me. Maybe that’s why no one else was on this tour.)

So I was introduced to my Segway. Her name was Eunice.

After a quick primer, they had me hop on and try some quick maneuvers.

I got on, and enthusiastically leaned forward.

And promptly ran over the instructor’s foot.

My son was not amused.

You can HEAR the eyeroll.

My son is a natural athlete (with a KILLER arm, by the way #mombrag) so he was fearlessly flying around on the thing in no time. Being a world-class klutz, I wasn’t quite as confident. But, after a few minutes, I was deemed passable. (Clearly, the bar was so low, I ran THAT over, too. And I never fully got the hang of standing still, so every time we stopped for a quick explanation on a sculpture or sign, I sort of coasted back and forth. Sometimes gently into a wall or a stop sign. I’m sure I appeared mildly drunk. I’m sure they’ve seen worse. I mean, tourists. Right?)

The tour was pretty cool. I’ve lived in this city for nine years (!!) now, and saw a million things I’ve never seen before.

We crossed historic bridges:

explored some of our city’s many bike trails:

and checked out some…art, I guess?

Yeah…this is called, creatively and literally, “Spoonbridge and Cherry.” Because it’s a bridge that’s a spoon, and there’s a cherry on the end.

This is located in an 11-acre sculpture garden outside a local “modern art” museum. Now, I don’t pretend to know anything about art – but some of the displays are…well….Last time I was there, they had a wall of salt and pepper shakers. Like Hell’s Yard Sale. Which I would have understood if they had CALLED it that, but it had some other lame name like “Modern Salt Shakers of the Century.” And the time before THAT, there was a whole room dedicated to the variant shadings of cubism and graphite. Which means SOMEONE DOODLED ON GRAPH PAPER WITH A PENCIL.

I will never understand art.

I tried, I really did. I studied the sculpture for a moment, cocking my head and squinting intellectually. Cupping my chin in my hand, I pondered aloud how the tonality of the structure might be modified if the artist had chosen to represent the cherry with, let’s say, an olive. I remarked that the timbre would quickly shift from whimsical and insouciant to somewhat disillusioned, yet sophisticated.

Glare from my son. “MOM. No one eats olives with a spoon.”

(Actually, I do. At midnight. When no one is looking. But apparently, that’s still a secret.)

The rest of the tour passed without incident. And by “without incident,” I mean that we had to take an off-road, unplanned detour down a pedestrians-only, bar-lined street, DURING HAPPY HOUR, due to road construction, and I crashed soundly and resolutely into a bridge. Which caused the tour guide (YES, the one whose foot I flattened) to solidly rearend me, sandwiching me between himself, Eunice, and the wrought-iron guard rail.

Hil-freakin-larious.

In my son’s words: “Dude. You were going straight, and you just didn’t TURN, and BOOM!” Soooo descriptive. And helpful. I cannot WAIT until you get your permit, buster.

I suppose he may as well learn that I never go out with anything less than a bang. <takes bow>

P.S. Yes, that’s me in the pictures. (Well not the maroon T-shirt; that’s my son, obviously.) I’ve added and deleted these photos several times. I may delete them again after I hit “publish.” Because I hate pictures of myself; I can’t look at one without scrutinizing what’s too big and too lumpy and too much and too everything. And then I wasn’t going to point OUT that it was me, because that’s calling attention to the whole thing, which means you are totally going to go back and click on the pictures now. Right? But part of the reason I’m here is to deal with my food and body issues – and normal people wouldn’t think twice about posting what SHOULD be perfectly innocuous pictures of something fun they did, because it’s NOT about the size of my azzmatazz, but about the event, and if I hadn’t SAID anything, no one would even have THOUGHT to check out the width of my thighs. So this whole paragraph is mental anxiety vomit about me TRYING TO BE NORMAL, which defeats the point entirely, but there ya go. I get a Participation Trophy for showing up, right? 😉

Losing Weight Is Hard. Because Math

Posted on August 28, 2015 by KatieComeBack

If you’ve ever embarked on a weight loss journey, you’ve probably encountered several folks who have attempted to provide tips and advice. I bet you’ve heard – or even uttered – some of these gems:

“Oh…just cut back on the carbs/fat/sugar.”

“Eat less processed food. That’ll do the trick.”

“Walk for an hour a day. The weight will fall right off.”

“Drink more water.”

“Lift weights! That just melts the fat away!”

“Don’t eat after 8 PM – those calories stick right to ya.”

I’m going to tell you right now that most of these folks are well-meaning (OK, maybe just nosy) – but entirely unhelpful. Because while these tips are certainly useful if you want to incorporate healthier habits, they won’t take anyone from obese to svelte. And they certainly won’t take twenty pounds off any female.

If losing weight were as easy as taking a daily walk, we’d all be in shape. Yet nearly 35% of Americans are obese. Let that sink in a minute. THIRTY-FIVE PERCENT of us aren’t merely overweight – we’re obese. And if you’re between the ages of 40 and 59, that figure rises to nearly FORTY PERCENT. 40% of that age group is obese.

Because I like pictures, here’s where all the fat people live:

Courtesy of http://www.cdc.gov/obesity/data/prevalence-maps.html

So now I’m going to tell you why losing weight is so dang hard. And I’m talking about women – especially women over 40 – here. (If you’re a dude, yes, I KNOW you can lose 5 pounds this week by replacing six of your french fries with a banana. GO AWAY before I bite you.)

This actually came up in conversation this week while I was talking with my company’s CFO. He mentioned his wife’s weight struggles, and his “helpful” suggestion of exercise. (Fortunately for him, we have good dental insurance.)

Since he’s the CFO, I thought laying out the numbers might help him understand what women truly have to go through to make any noticeable dent in their weight.

We’re going to do some math here, folks. Bear with me, though. This is gold.

For my food and activity tracking, I like to use the free tool MyFitnessPal. It has a huge database of foods and the calories they contain, and it syncs nicely with MapMyFitness, so my calories burned and calories eaten are all in the same place.

So let’s open up MyFitnessPal and see what it has to say.

I enter my age, my height, and my weight. Next, I input my activity level. I have a desk job, and a 45-minute commute, so I guess “sedentary” will cover it.

And my results….

To maintain my weight, I can eat 1450 calories a day.

<blink>

If you know anything about calories, you know that ain’t a lot. I’m of pretty average height and pretty average build, and my daily caloric allowance to MAINTAIN my weight can be consumed in one moderate meal:

McDonald’s: A Bacon Clubhouse Grilled Chicken sandwich (610), medium order of fries (340), and a small chocolate chip frappe (520). (1470. I didn’t even get any ketchup.)

Red Lobster: a half-order of the Crab Linguini Alfredo (1030!! for half!!), a Cheddar Bay Biscuit (160), and a garden salad (70) with French dressing (180). (1440. I had to skip the drinks…I guess I could afford a lemon wedge in my water.)

These are not unreasonable meals. I certainly know I can pack away a heckuva lot more in a day. But by selecting one of these, I’ve spent my ENTIRE caloric allotment for the day IN ONE SITTING. (And yes, I know there are better choices available. The point here is that these are not inappropriately obnoxious plates of food, and if you’re not absolutely militant about knowing what you’re eating, the fat ninjas will jump you and tattoo themselves to your backside.)

Isn’t this FUN?!! Let’s try going on a date. How about:

Applebee’s: Split an order of Spinach and Artichoke dip (980) and a Blue Ribbon brownie (1670). Drink one light beer. (Which is kinda pointless, right? But that brings you to about 1430.)

Don Pablo’s: Eat no more than eight tortilla chips (191 calories for 13) while waiting for your order. Split an order of Buffalo Wings (752) and a plate of Chicken Cantina Nachos (1059). Drink two Slenderitas. (211 each.) It’s not a very interesting date, but you munched 1445 calories while listening to him drone on about beating his mother on World of Warcraft.

That’s an entire day’s worth of calories right there, folks. IN ONE DATE.

Depressed yet? Because there’s more.

Let’s now shift our focus to actual weight loss.

Remember, to MAINTAIN my weight, I get to eat 1450 calories a day. That means that if I want to LOSE, I actually have to eat less.

But how much less? Well, we know you need a 3500-calorie deficit to lose a pound. So, to lose a pound a week, we’d need to cut 500 calories a day. (3500 / 7 = 500.)

<beep beep> Back up the truck here. I get 1450 calories to MAINTAIN my weight.

1450 – 500 = 950. (Or a medium Chocolate Xtreme Blizzard at Dairy Queen. BREAKFAST OF CHAMPIONS YO)

But wait a sec….we’ve all heard the guideline that you shouldn’t eat fewer than 1200 calories a day. Frankly, it’s extremely difficult to get the recommended nutrition you need on 1200 calories – not to mention most of us get dangerously hangry and will bite your head clean off the clavicle.

Let’s be real – for most of us, a daily allowance of 950 calories is just not gonna happen, at least not on a regular, sustained basis. You might be able to keep it up for a week or so, but eventually, your body will force you into survival by shoving you face-first into a deep dish pizza. So let’s try to be somewhat moderate here.

1450 – 1200 = 250. 250 * 7 = 1750. So by eating 1200 calories a day, I can expect to lose a half pound a week.

Yippee.

If I have five pounds to lose, that means I have to stick to 1200 calories a day, EVERY DAY, for TEN WEEKS. (Two and a half months. Pretty much an entire season.)

I don’t think I have to explain the level of discipline required to stick to this for ten weeks straight.

But let’s interject some real life here.

How many of us have gone into the weekend with steel resolve, only to be swayed by the mental chant of “I worked hard all week, I deserve a TREAT!” on Friday night or Saturday?

Because we’re being moderate, let’s allow ourselves a small indulgence. How about, after resolutely following our diets for six days straight, we have a little Saturday treat? You know I like ice cream – let’s get a two-scoop sundae from Culver’s.

There goes 1040 calories of the 1750 deficit. (And it was delicious.)

So now, I have a 710-calorie deficit for the week. (1750 – 1040 = 710.)

Which means it will take me NEARLY FIVE WEEKS to lose ONE pound (3500 / 710 = 4.93) ….and to lose five pounds? TWENTY-FOUR AND A HALF WEEKS. (3500 * 5 / 710 = 24.65)

Yes, folks. If I eat 1200 calories a day, with the SOLE exception of ONE two-scoop sundae cheat a week, it will take me SIX FREAKING @#($@#$ MONTHS to lose FIVE POUNDS.

Oh, wait, though – I can add exercise! Ooh, that’s gotta help! Right?

I’ve mentioned before that I’m a runner. Four days a week, I have a not-insignificant run of 3.5 miles. And I’m not slogging along, either – I’m doing a 9.25 minute mile.

So…3 miles at a jog, with a quarter mile warm-up and cool-down walk. Let’s put that into MyFitnessPal.

303 calories. (1 1/2 Pop Tarts.)

So if I manage to get out of bed and DO this four days a week, I’ll have burned off the equivalent of one pint of Ben & Jerry’s New York Super Fudge Chunk. (Which, according to the label, has 1200 calories and is designed to serve four people. To which I say HAHAHAHAHAHA)

In other words – if I run four days a week, I can eat 1450 calories a day + one pint of ice cream and MAINTAIN my weight…or I can lose ONE pound in just under three weeks by eating 1450 calories a day and RUNNING FULL TILT four times a week.

Are you seeing how freaking ridiculous this is?

And we haven’t even added any complicating factors. Thyroid issues. Hormones. Water retention. Leftover Happy Meal fries. Muscle loss and the metabolism slowdown that comes with aging. And the fact that the more weight you lose, the fewer calories your body needs.

Is it any wonder that so many of us struggle with our weight, and with food?

So, fellas? If a woman you care about is frustrated with her weight, don’t tell her to hit the gym. Don’t remind her that ice cream is fattening. And for the love of all that is holy and good, do NOT tell her that she is anything but absolutely beautiful.

Just tell her that you love her, no matter what.

And give her a hug from me while you’re at it. Because I’m right there with ya, chica.

If Ya Can’t Be Normal, Be Paranormal

Posted on August 21, 2015 by KatieComeBack

I’ve mentioned before that, when it comes to TV, the hubs and I struggle to agree on what to watch. But one of the topics we DO enjoy viewing together is the supernatural/paranormal. We’re both fascinated by psychics, ghost hunting, and the occasional UFO or Sasquatch sighting.

Of course, we differ on the big question of “what happens when we die?” I believe in God and in heaven, whereas the hubs is atheist/agnostic. But we both find ourselves with a lot of unexplained loose ends when we watch “ghost hunter” shows like Paranormal State, Ghost Lab, or Ghost Hunters. We’re completely mesmerized as temperature fluctuations are documented, objects inexplicably move, and disembodied voices are captured, all with no logical, rational, explanation. (Except the “explanation” that it’s all fake. If this is your position, you can skip right out of this post. Fun killer.)

I am totally on board with believing that ghosts are actual dead people. But I am open to the possibility that there’s a solid scientific explanation for all this. After all, the brain is a complex organ – one we’ve only barely begun to understand. It’s entirely possible that these phenomena are simply weird bursts of electricity – like clouds – that our brains, desperate to relate them to something familiar, turn into “ghosts.”

Or, perhaps this “evidence” is coming from the investigators themselves – the (not dead) people who are wandering around in the dark might be sending off brain waves in the form of electricity that we can then capture as voices, cold spots, and occasionally as a chair flying across the room.

(This plays nicely into my other theory that we are actually ALL psychic to some degree. Think of psychic ability like a muscle – some people are born able to do pushups or run triathlons, while most of us can’t do more than jog a block or lift a beer without extensive, dedicated training. So if someone is psychic, they’re just better at interpreting energy clouds than the rest of us are, but we could ALL be better at it if we went to, like, psychic bootcamp or something. Wouldn’t THAT be amazeballs?)

So I have two experiences to share on this subject:

First one: Let’s go back to when I was about nine years old or so. A little background: I was raised Catholic; therefore, we observed Lent, which is the season six weeks before Easter where you give up a food you love (like chocolate. Dad always gave up cherry milkshakes, which he hates. Yeah, he told that joke every year) and you don’t eat meat on Fridays. (I know it means more than that – it’s about spiritual sacrifice and cleaning up your soul a bit – but it wasn’t when I was nine.) My dad hated fish, so the meatless meal was invariably pizza.

Pizza was my favorite thing to eat IN THE WHOLE WORLD, so naturally I looked forward to dinner on Fridays. And dinner was always, ALWAYS, at six o’clock, which is when Dad got home every single night, like clockwork. The routine was to order the pizza at 5:20 so we could pick it up and be back home by six.

At about 4:45 or so on this particular Friday, I whined to Mom about being hungry. She reminded me that Dad would be home at six, like ALWAYS <read: so shut up.>

I said to her, “You better order it now. Dad’ll be home in like ten minutes.”

Mom chuckled and went back to her crossword puzzle. But when Dad unexpectedly walked in the door at 4:57, Mom wasn’t laughing anymore.

(I think she was a little bit afraid of me after that.)

Second: Fast forward to when my daughter was born. Like any new mom, I was exhausted. My new baby NEVER slept (seriously. As a newborn, she slept 11-12 hours in a 24-hour period. When my son came along and clocked 20 hours a day, I thought he was broken.)

At night, I’d nurse her in the rocking chair I placed between the crib and the bedroom door. While I was rocking her, I’d turn off the bedroom light, but leave the hall light on and the bedroom door open. That way, the room would be dark enough for my baby to sleep, but just light enough for me to see where I was going when I got up to lay her in the crib (and light enough so I didn’t fall asleep and drop her to the floor.)

Sometimes, I’d be so tired that I’d start to doze in the chair. And when I started to drift off, the bedroom door would slowly close.

I’d reach out and push it back open – I needed the light, and I didn’t want to drop my baby! – and resume rocking.

Once again, if my eyes started to shut, the door would gently drift closed.

This would repeat until finally, exasperated, I would say something like, “please leave that open” or “knock it off, I need to stay awake.”

Only after I said something out loud would the door stay open.

Kinda spooky, yet cool, right?

Cooler still – I actually have a picture of my ghost. This picture was taken by my then-mother-in-law; she was standing behind me and took it facing a mirror my daughter and I were looking into.

The only folks in the room were the three of us. Yet…look closely:

Do you see the face? The eyes are pretty much in the center of the pic; I can see a nose below it (he’s sort of looking to the left of the pic) and I can make out an ear on his left.

And then, beside his ear, there’s ANOTHER DUDE. Only part of his face is there, but you can totally make out a beard and eyebrows.

No. Really. Look again.

<sigh> This may help:

See? SEE?!!?!?

I have no idea who these dudes are. But, interestingly, they do resemble the ex’s side of the family. It’s not my ex, or his dad…but no one would throw them out of the annual family reunion.

So why am I bringing this up now?

Well…there’s been some…unusual activity recently that I can’t just shrug off.

1. Early this week, on our morning run, I had a song stuck in my head. Later, when I turned on the car to head to work, guess what song played? (Okay, it was a pretty popular song, so that was probably coincidence, but….)

2. About halfway to work that day, I butt-dialed my sister. Except the phone wasn’t in my pocket. It was IN MY PURSE. My phone magically dialed my sister while I was tooling down the highway belting out Adele at the top of my lungs, completely unaware that I had an audience.

3. When we run, I take my iPhone along. I use it to track the activity via MyFitnessPal (you know, so I can eat back the paltry 303 calories I burn RUNNING 3.5 FREAKING MILES…life is unfair.) I also usually turn on my music halfway into the run (because by then I’m either dying of boredom, or just plain dying.) I have 1,117 songs, so it’s a good variety.

I’ve mentioned before that the hubs and I disagree on a lot of things. Music is one of those things. Several times, he’s mocked a song that I love, making fun of the lyrics, the vocalist, or both. One of those songs is The A Team, by Ed Sheeran:

It’s a song about drug addiction; the lyrics are dark, but the music balances that with folksy, upbeat guitar and vocals. It’s poetry, beautiful and sad….But all the hubs hears is something about angels flying and crumbled pastries and that’s it, the song sucks. (Men. <eyeroll> And yes, I’ve asked him for an example of “good” lyrics, and he changes the subject. WHATEVER.)

When this song was popular, so was this argument – we’d repeat it every time the song played.

The odd thing? This song has come up on shuffle EVERY DAY WE’VE RUN for the last two weeks. Every morning, without fail. It’s one of five or six songs that pops in – OUT OF 1,117 POSSIBLE SELECTIONS.

(Suffice it to say we’ve been discussing this song a lot. And this morning, he actually said he was coming around a bit to appreciate it. <stunned silence> Now watch – it’ll never come up on shuffle again.)

4. In a prior post I mentioned my coffee addiction – to support it, I have a monthly subscription for coffee delivery. I have two bags of fresh beans delivered every month from Velasquez Family Coffee (African Cinnamon and French Vanilla, but they’re all awesome, trust me.)

During this past month, I’ve been hitting the java a bit harder than usual, and was running low on supply. I figured I’d just add a bag of coffee to this month’s delivery to bring my stock up. Unfortunately, I never got around to ordering that third bag.

Last week, my monthly delivery was at my door.

There were three bags of coffee.

Confused, I emailed the supplier…ya know, I’m ~~old~~ busy, maybe I actually DID order the third bag, and just forgot?

Nope.

No one else was missing a bag.

No order for a third bag was placed, and

NO BAG IS MISSING FROM THEIR INVENTORY.

I did offer to pay for it, since I MEANT to order it. They told me to keep it since it didn’t appear to be missing. (YAY FREE PSYCHIC PARANORMAL COFFEE)

So what’s going on here? Sunspots? Hormonal imbalance causing me to send sixth-sense brain waves to the universe? String theory got tangled into some bizarre game of Cat’s Cradle?

Whatever it is, it’s been an amusing and welcome distraction from my food issues. So, even if it’s nothing more than coincidental entertainment, I’ll take it.

I know I haven’t talked about my food issues in a while. I was going to today – and I’ll be getting back to that shortly, I promise.

But in the meantime, everyone likes a good ghost story or psychic experience, right?

Do you have one to share? (Hint, hint.) 🙂

Sunshine on My Blog Page Makes Me Happy

Posted on August 15, 2015 by KatieComeBack

Anyone else remember that song?

When I think of John Denver, I either think of Sunshine on My Shoulders, or, peculiarly, Kermit the Frog.

I’m not entirely certain why my brain equates John Denver with the Muppets. I know he was featured on the Muppet Show a few times, and this was the early 70s (which where my formative years, NOT because anyone I knew was smoking anything suspect. Then again, I was a kid; what did I know?) Although John Denver appears to have had a full life and career outside Kermit’s world, it simply doesn’t exist in my brain.

Anyway…sunshine’s on my mind today. Both Chelise at Caterpillar to Butterfly and Nikki at Undiagnosed Warrior nominated me for the Sunshine Blog Award (so I get TWO pretty things to hang on my wall! And they’re ORANGE! My fave!!!)

DA RULES:

Thank the person who nominated you in a blog post
Answer the 11 questions set by the person who nominated you
Nominate 11 blogs to receive the award, and write them 11 new questions

So that means I have TWENTY-TWO QUESTIONS to answer. Yowza. This could take awhile….

What is the most important thing to you? I probably am supposed to say something poignant and sentimental here about my kids and the hubs.

Realistically, though, the longest item of focus in my life has been my weight.

Wow…that’s kind of…pathetic, isn’t it. (Not a question. A statement.)

But I guess if I’m being honest here, my weight is something I’ve kept a close eye on fairly consistently for…<does quick math> THIRTY-~~THREE-~~FOUR FREAKING YEARS.

Yikes. That’s kind of an eye-opener.

Seriously – I need to think about this for a bit.

Do I really want this to be my legacy?

OK. I’m sweaty now, and have clippings stuck to my neck. (There’s probably a fetish site for that. NOT GOOGLING.) Burned 300+ calories, have well-manicured lawn, and am no closer to setting life goals.

Ah well, it’ll grow back and I can try again. <shrugs>

If you could go anywhere right now, where would it be? Back to bed with my coffee. Ahhhhh.

As far as physical places go – I would love to take an Alaskan cruise, although I’m a bit iffy on the whole cold-weather thing. I really want to spend time on the west coast – mountains AND ocean and ginormous trees, and lots of wine. What could be better? (Also will take recommendations….HINT HINT)

What’s your favorite thing about blogging? Camaraderie. I love my new invisible friends!

What’s your favorite thing about yourself? I crack myself up. 🙂

What has been your biggest challenge in life so far? I think the hardest time in my life was my divorce. It’s like breaking a Fabergé egg. You have this thing (marriage) that you’ve worked up in your mind to be beautiful; to be treasured and protected – and you have to smash it on the ground and sweep up the pieces, reordering them into something that will never resemble the ideal ever again. You and your kids WILL get to a point where things are OK…but it won’t be the Fabergé egg. That no longer exists.

Whoa. Deep.

Do you believe in love at first sight? Only with shoes. Everything else needs to be tried on and worked into the wardrobe, and sometimes, no matter how fabulous he appears to be on the rack, he just doesn’t work with your lifestyle.

Where do you see yourself in ten years? Hopefully I’ll be a grandmother and taking FABULOUS vacations out west! (No pressure, kids. Even though I have fed and diapered you since birth, and have sacrificed <sob> SO MUCH for your happiness….)

How many languages do you speak? What languages do you speak fluidly? English only. Although I used to understand Spanish fairly well – I’ve worked in a few bilingual facilities; between that and four years of high school Spanish, I often only needed an interpreter one way. (However, no amount of language training can prepare you to explain how an HSA works. Heck, it’s nearly impossible in English.)

What do you think is your best post so far? Link it. I’m picking two, because I’m a thug rebel like that. Why I Hate Deer is one. The other is a little darker but I needed to get it out of my head: Frosting

What’s your favorite quote? “The world is changed by your example, not by your opinion.” ~ Paulo Coelho

If you could recommend one fellow blogger for me to follow, who would it be and why? Click on Problems With Infinity. Quirky humor AND PICTURES. LOVE.

Favorite vacation spot? Sadly, I have no idea, as I haven’t been on one in over ten years….

Favorite time of day? Evening. I’m not quite the night owl I used to be (thanks for NOTHING, societal norms) but I do my best thinking after 4 PM. Or maybe I just LOOK good in comparison because by that time of day, everyone else’s battery is pretty much drained. Ha.

Ocean or Lake? Mountains. 🙂

Dogs or cats? I’m a cat person. You can read about my eating-disordered cats HERE.

Favorite season? Notwinter. THAT TOTALLY COUNTS. Fall = Football, Summer = Warm, Spring = Flowers and End of Winter. All good, all not winter.

Zodiac Sign? Both sides of my brain are firmly Gemini. So is the hubs. Makes life interesting, if you like seesaws and being randomly off-balance.

Exerciser or Couch Potato? Genetically, a couch potato. I do exercise, but it’s always a chore. It’s like brushing my teeth – I may never LOVE it, but I’ll DO it, because I don’t like what things look like when I don’t.

How long have you been blogging? I started this blog 2/4/15. It’s been six months and over 50 posts – wow, that adds up!

Camping or Hotel? This is much like asking, “buy new shoes or stab self with fish hooks?” I love indoor plumbing. I do NOT love schlepping 100+ pounds of crapola from house to forest in order to sleep outside when Man has invented PERFECTLY GOOD devices for this in sheltered areas.

Nor do I relish the thought of hauling all the sweaty linens, dishes, and shelter, with freshly accumulated dirt and leaves, back home to have to clean and put away. Seriously – hauling half a week’s worth of groceries kind of sucks. You want me to carry my bed, my food, AND my roof around the wilderness? Just thinking about that makes me too tired to actually go outside. HOW IS THIS FUN?

And there’s no WiFi.

I seriously think y’all who enjoy this are just pretending. I simply cannot wrap my head around it.

Favorite movie? Again, I have two. While I normally lack the attention span to sit through an entire movie (two hours? Kill me) there are two that I’ll watch over and over and over again.

First: The Incredibles.

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(Weird glitch isn't letting me caption this. Photo from http://movies.disney.com/the-incredibles)

So many gems in that one. I seriously overuse “You got me monolouging” and “WHERE. IS MY SUPERSUIT” and “Abort! Abort! There are children aboard!” And I reference Bob’s opinion of incessant graduations ALL.THE.TIME. Go HERE and read ALL the quotes. It’s totally a scientific sociological specimen. 100%. Seriously. WATCH THIS. Now.

You also need to run out and go see Hitch. BECAUSE IT’S HILARIOUS.

Photo from http://www.sonypictures.com/movies/hitch/

Every adult in the dating world needs to watch this – after you do, you’ll feel strangely better about the whole mess. I promise.

This is another one with so many relatable quotes I can’t even. “Don’t need no pizza. They got plenty of food there.” BEST QUOTE ON BAD DANCING EVER.

See? Now you’re intrigued, aren’t ya. GO WATCH IT. It’s on Netflix and it will TOTALLY brighten your day. Like sunshine.

Passing the torch along to eleven bloggers who do a nice job of spreading light. I won’t be offended if you don’t take this challenge on. Just know that you brighten my day.

<barf>

YOUR QUESTIONS:

1. Describe to me, in detail, your favorite pizza. (Bonus points if you can make it sound sultry.)

2. Congratulations! You just won a boat. What do you name her?

3. INTRUDER ALERT! Someone’s breaking into your house! What do you grab to fend him off?

4. What is your least favorite household chore?

5. A stranger hands you $100 and one condition: you have to spend it on something COMPLETELY frivolous, or a puppy dies. What do you spend it on?

6. Say something spiritual about doing laundry.

7. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever eaten (on purpose?)

8. What’s the oldest thing in your fridge right now?

9. Describe your sleeping space.

10. Thrill rides: Yes or no, and why or why not?

11. What’s your favorite joke?

That oughta do it, for now. The sun is setting on this post.

<gong>

Cleaning Out the Trophy Case – Awards On Parade!

Posted on August 14, 2015 by KatieComeBack

Now that summer is winding down, it’s time to clean out my virtual blogging closet and get a bit organized….I’ve been spending time ~~bingewatching Friends on Netflix and Supersize vs. Superskinny on YouTube~~ getting outside, hanging with the kids, and just generally enjoying the long summer days before winter (which starts in October and often goes through May…MAY. Why the eff did I move here, again?) sets in.

So while I’ve been ~~firmly planted on the couch watching my glutes spread~~ out and about having a fulfilling, meaningful life, a few awards and such have been piling up. And yeah, I know I’m not obligated to take these on….but I find they serve two purposes:

They get the creative juices squeezed out of the driest of lemons – they make you write SOMETHING, and generally, something > nothing. (Unless your writing is crap. But even then, better out than in, right?)
They give you an opportunity to give a nod to other blogs you enjoy. (There are some real characters on here. Wanna laugh? Cry? Nod frantically while yelling “THIS THIS THIS ZOMG YES THIS EXACTLY“? It’s all on WordPress, folks.)
It’s free therapy. You can chuck your mind’s ramblings on a virtual wall, and what you get back is validating, encouraging, enlightening, thought-provoking, and/or freakin’ hilarious. For FREE, yo. FREE. (And free can be AWESOME. Have I ever mentioned I met the hubs on a free dating site? I’m like Choos on clearance, totes. Or like stumbling on Prada at the dollar store.)

And yes, that’s three. Or maybe two and a helper with that Common Core brain scramble. I love this post about Common Core at suyts space – the pictures and the ensuing comments sum it all up nicely for me. (See what I did there? <snort>)

A few weeks ago, Chelise from Caterpillar to Butterfly was kind enough to nominate me for a couple of things. First up – the Encouraging Thunder award:

Full disclosure: We have three teenage boys in the house. “Encouraging Thunder” sounds like passive encouragement for a belching contest. OR WORSE. (Which reminds me…Both of our Aim ‘n Flames seem to be empty – mental note to add to shopping list. Along with Febreeze. YAY BOYS.)

Rules for accepting the award:

Post it on your blog. Check!
Add the Encouraging Thunder logo. Got it!
Grant other bloggers the award. Below!
Mention your purpose in blogging. You can find that here in my first post.
Thank the person who nominated you. Thanks Chelise! 🙂

Nominations:

I am learning a lot from Mr. Know Body. Lots of medical stuff (likely not for squeamish delicate-flower types, but good info if you’re not terribly fragile.)
Also have always enjoyed The Persistent Platypus – she manages anxiety in a very open and extremely positive way. You can’t be in a bad mood after reading one of her posts. I promise. 🙂

Next up: Brighton Bipolar was kind enough to nominate me for the Blogger Recognition Award! By the way, if you don’t read her blog – you totally should. It is filled to the gills with great info on all things mental health – lots of info to digest and share!

Blogger Recognition Award Rules:

1. Select 15 other blogs you want to give the award to. Do some digging if you must! Find those blogs. You cannot nominate yourself or the person who has nominated you.

2. Write a post to show off your award! Give a brief story of how your blog got started, and give a piece or two of advice to new bloggers. Thank whoever nominated you, and provide a link to their blog. List who you’ve nominated in the post. Make sure to also attach the award itself! (You can do this by right-clicking, saving, and uploading the image above).

3. Comment on each blog and let them know you’ve nominated them. Provide a link to the award post you created.

4. Provide a link to the original post on Edge of Night. That way, anyone can find the original guidelines and post if needed, and we can keep it from mutating and becoming confusing!

Let’s get started….<rolls up sleeves and whips out fancy pen>

(Holy Frito. Fifteen?? That’s a hella lot. Lemme think here….I’m just gonna list some blogs I enjoy, learn from, or both):

Whew! I think that’s the first rule I’ve followed in awhile….Gah, following directions is EXHAUSTING.

OK. <steels self> Let’s git ‘er done.

Give a brief story of how your blog got started, and give a piece or two of advice to new bloggers.

Brief?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Have we met? (Sorry. Do I have to give the award back? Because Kate is to brief as fish poo is to breakfast.)

OK, back on task here. Hmm.

Well, the good news is that I already wrote about why I’m here, and why I started this blog.

Advice to new bloggers? Hmm….

1. Join the community. Read at least three times as much as you write. “Like” liberally and comment frequently. Put yourself out there – virtually position yourself in the center of the room with a fabulous glass of red, a brilliant frock, and killer shoes – and mingle.

2. Don’t try to cram every thought into your post. It’s like packing for a trip. Sure, you can ALWAYS pack one more pair of socks, but there comes a point where the zipper will kersplode, leaving the tourists and weary business travelers shaking their heads as your unmentionables roll down the conveyor. Not the image you were gunning for. (Clearly, I sort of suck at this one. Both the point AND the analogy. It ain’t full until I sit on it and pull the zipper with pliers to get it shut!)

3. Remember why you’re doing this, and stay true to YOU. Your writing isn’t mass-produced – it’s one-of-a-kind. And sure, that MIGHT mean you’re the sequinned and bedazzled reindeer-and-turnips sweater that your dear Aunt Matilda knitted by hand – but you’ll be the ONLY bedazzled reindeer-and-turnips sweater out there. You’ll find your voice, and it’ll be uniquely yours.

One more – the Just For Fun Blogging Award, created by whereshappy at a funny thing happened when I was learning myself!

DA RULZ:

The questions generated should just be silly and fun.
Invite any one you want to participate, but really think of those people that you find have a great sense of humor and are willing to just play along for a few minutes.
Please link back to this page (ping me) if you participate so that I can try to see who is giving this a go and to see how far it reaches. I have no problem with this being re-blogged, if that’s how you would like to share.
This is just for fun and is just a way to get people to know each other better! Seriously, that’s it. Just have some fun with it, please!
No is a perfectly acceptable answer for me and everyone else. If you think this award is dumb, then more power to you–I hope you have a wonderful day doing whatever floats your boat.

I like her style. 🙂 Plus, she digs Darren Criss WHO I TOTALLY MET IN PERSON WHEN HE DID THE LISTEN UP TOUR IN CLEVELAND. It was my daughter’s 15th birthday present. Happy Birthday to ME, yo. Besides, he’s 18; it’s all legal, baby.

So I’m picking three questions from her list to answer:

What was the first concert you ever attended? The Monkees revival tour, in Elmira, NY. (Revival. 1986, not 1966. JUST TO BE CLEAR.) It. Was. Epic.

Who is your celebrity crush? Since Darren Criss is taken….I loves me some Wayne Brady. He is BRILLIANT.

I got to see him live at an HR conference in 2002 in Philly, and I almost GOT ON STAGE with him, too, but then some pushy harlot pretty much flashed him and I got lost in the shuffle. Brush-with-fame sadness.

Seriously, his improv is ART. ART! (Plus, he’s adorable. Right?) Incidentally….he used to stutter, and had anxiety as a child. He also suffers from depression. Despite these challenges, he’s freakin’ amazing. Tremendous talent in a fine-lookin’ package…. 😉

What is your go to song to sing in the shower? Broadway, baby. My first pick is the complete soundtrack of Andrew Lloyd Webber‘s Aspects of Love. I can pretty much do the whole thing by heart. But in a pinch, I can blast through Les Miserables or Sweeney Todd, too. Nothing blasts through a crappity mood like singing about turning society’s derelicts and deadbeats into savory, craveable meat pies. Right?

Nominees for this prestigious award are Cat in the Cactus and Problems with Infinity. Here are your three questions:

1. What’s your FAVORITE pair of shoes? Describe them and tell me how you met.

2. The mail’s here! What do you get SUPER EXCITED about seeing in your mailbox?

3. What condiment can you eat the most of? Like, a shot glass full, or a bowl of?

These ladies are hilarious, so I eagerly anticipate their answers! 🙂

Well, that’s all for this one, folks. All the candy has been tossed, the horses have been swept behind, and the bands have gone home. (Why do they ALWAYS put the marching band BEHIND the horses, anyway?)

Over and out, peeps.

The Love/Hate Challenge: Part 6 – SHOOT IT SHOOT IT SHOOT IT

Posted on August 10, 2015 by KatieComeBack

I am pleased to announce that this is the FINAL INSTALLMENT of this challenge! Loud cheers and huzzahs!

I do enjoy these challenges – because although I like to write – and it’s good for me to do so – sometimes breaking the inertia and getting started is the hardest part, and these challenges give you somewhere to point your feet once you actually get off the mental sofa and open the front door. But this one is starting to look like an evening gown in my closet that I bought for a fancy party four years ago – while I still love it, I need to get it to a consignment shop before it’s no longer fashionably relevant (and before I get too fat to wear it, and just looking at it makes me cry.)

DA RULES:

List 10 things you LOVE
List 10 things you HATE
Nominate a few suckers to do the same

10 THINGS I LOVE and 10 THINGS I HATE (in unranked order)

PART 6: THE FINAL CHAPTER

When I first started working on this series, I was having trouble coming up with ten different things. (Now that I’m at the end, I have like six more things to write about…so I guess this challenge was a good starting point.) But I was having trouble getting off the starting block, so I asked my kids for help brainstorming.

(Yes. I should have known better.)

Me: So I’m writing about ten things I love and ten things I hate. What are ten things YOU hate?

Daughter: My brother, my brother, my brother, my brother….

Me: <cutting her off> That’s cheating. Your brother is ONE thing. You can’t list him ten times.

Son: OK then. My sister’s face. My sister’s head. My sister’s mouth. My sister’s singing. My sister’s bu….

Me: <cheerily> HEY! Who wants ice cream?

Sigh.

The Love/Hate Challenge has been up WAY past its bedtime….time to shut out the lights and tuck this one in.

10. I hate deer. But I love messing with people.

Remember when Bambi first came out? Wait…of course you don’t. That was like, 1942 or something. But I do remember watching it in the movie theater.

Incidentally, did you remember that Bambi was a DUDE? Next time I’m at a bachelorette party, and the fake-cop comes in to strip, I’ll try shouting “Take it off, Bambi” as I shove dollar bills in his general direction. I’m sure it’ll be super effective in getting his attention.

I also distinctly remember the scene when Bambi’s mother died. Strangely, I was the only one who leapt to her feet and cheered.

What? You were sad?

Don’t be.

The only good deer is a dead deer. And here is why:

Deer suck.

They really do. They’re sort of like the rich teenagers on Gossip Girl (which I am NOT currently bingewatching with my daughter) – when people see them, they ooh and ah over how pretty they are, and everyone wants to get close to them and snap pictures to share on social media.

But then they randomly do totally b!tchy things like eat your flowers or randomly leap in front of your car when you’re zipping down the highway at 72 mph, and as you’re looking over the remnants of your petunias or your crumpled fender, you suddenly want to mow them all down with a fully loaded AK-47.

So far, I’ve been lucky – I haven’t actually struck a deer yet. Since I grew up in rural PA, I recognize that I’ve beat the odds here.

But my time will come.

They’re all waiting along the highway, watching me, waiting for that PERFECT moment when I’m tooling down a nameless country road at midnight, juggling a refresh on Google Maps and a hot cup of Dunkin’. Then – only then – they will strike. And once they do? It’s ON, futhamuckers. It. Is. On. You spill my coffee, we will have words. <angles bazooka menacingly>

In the meantime? I married into a family that hunts. And while I support the swift obliteration of the entire species of glorified rats with antlers, I’ll admit I’m not the biggest fan of using them as decoration. I mean, if you want to make an impact, hang the severed heads outside, where they can serve as a horrible warning to the survivors to stay the h#ll off my lawn.

(Side note: My grandpa was a salmon fisherman, and once he cleaned the fish, he used to nail their heads to the pine trees by the garden. He said it kept the snakes away. I can’t tell you whether it worked or not, but you can bet your sweet bippie we never had any salmon digging up our gardens and dinging up our bumpers, that’s for sure. To be fair, salmon skulls aren’t really all that cuddly. Would YOU raid a garden decorated with this?)

Fish heads aside, most folks insist on displaying their kill indoors. So my options are either to get used to it…or help them kick it up a notch.

I present Exhibit A:

Tragically, after running away to Vegas, Amber paid the ultimate price for hard, fast living.

Recently, my kids and I were at a birthday party for one of the hubby’s relatives.

Now, these are perfectly nice people….but after a while, I was frantically looking for a graceful escape route when the birthday girl’s grandmother monologued for TWENTY MINUTES about how relaxing and rewarding it was to…

…wait for it…

…iron.

Wait, what?

Iron?

Yup. Everything. Baby clothes, sheets, it’s all so soothing. And she won over her husband because of how meticulous she was about pressing his underwear.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

I can’t even.

I think we still have an iron. It’s stuffed in the back of the NOPE closet next to the bucket of Hell No and the box of Never Again.

I do remember the last time I ironed, actually. It was October of 1999 and I was about 12 weeks pregnant with my son. I was getting ready to go on a business trip, and my pants (already!!) didn’t fit, so I had to dig out pair of maternity pants. They had only been in storage a few months, but were wrinkled beyond recognition, and iron repellant* hadn’t been invented yet, so I attempted to iron.

And promptly burned my arm.

And immediately quit ironing forever, because I was traumatically scarred FOR LIFE. That shiz is dangerous, yo.

See?! SEE?!??!?

* Iron repellant = Downy Wrinkle Releaser. If that stuff doesn’t work on an article of clothing, it goes in the Goodwill bin. Ain’t nobody got time for dat.

Anyway. After that absolutely riveting tale of uncreased unmentionables, the kiddos and I were bored. And when my kids get bored…let’s just say I can either create a diversion, or become a victim. I learned my lesson at the LAST family party, where my daughter stole my phone and updated the spelling dictionary to change over seventy-five common words to autocorrect to “poop.” (She also changed her name to Her Royal Highness, and her brother’s to something unprintable. <shrug> She comes by it honestly, I guess.)

So we decided to play a game with the party balloons. There were about a dozen trophies hanging on the wall. First kid to score an antler basket wins $10. GO!

It took about 10 minutes (it’s harder than it looks with 12′ ceilings.) My son is $10 richer, and in my opinion, it was money well spent.

The final nomination for this challenge is sonofabeach96 – because we recently bonded over coffee. 😉

And with that – CHALLENGE CLOSED. <mic drop>

The Love/Hate Challenge! Part 5: A Second Pot of Coffee

Posted on August 9, 2015 by KatieComeBack

Bear with me, folks – we’re on part five of six – I PROMISE I’m wrapping this up here. Eventually.

Coffee was the subject of my last post, and I suspect will occupy the better part of this one. But because my daily cup of personality allows me to spell it “morning” instead of “mourning,” it deserves a little extra love and attention. So pour yourself a fresh cuppa joe, prop up your feet, and get comfy.

DA RULES:

List 10 things you LOVE
List 10 things you HATE
Nominate a few suckers to do the same

10 THINGS I LOVE and 10 THINGS I HATE (in unranked order)

PART 5: MORE COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE

9. I love gas station coffee, and I hate Starbucks.

In my last post, I may have mentioned that I love coffee. And while this is very true, I’m totally blue-collar about it. As long as you’re drinking it black, I’m the furthest thing from a coffee snob that there is.

Confession: I actually drink – and like – coffee from the gas station.

Hey, don’t knock it ’till ya try it – if you can’t find a McDonald’s, know that Sheetz, Holiday, KwikTrip, and SuperAmerica all have decent roasts – and they sell 24oz cups to tote it in. WINNING. (Side note: Sheetz actually has some decent food, too, for a 24/7 gas station. Certainly a few notches above Taco Bell, and deny all you want, I KNOW you are totally eating that shiz on the sly. Taco Bell is the Walmart of fast food – the largest chain where <cough> “nobody” eats, EVER.)

My fave chain coffee is Dunkin’ Donuts. I’m self-aware enough to realize that it was probably because I was raised on the stuff – I’m from the East Coast, and Dunkin’ dominated; back home, this chain is everywhere. Although Tim Hortons is seriously encroaching on the terrain; once we let him out of Canada, he started to spread like some sort of mutant coffee kudzu. But if he chokes out Starbucks, I’ll consider it a symbiotic relationship and agree to peacefully coexist.

Side note: Where you’re raised definitely influences your tastes. I remember reading a study years ago (it was probably Consumer Reports, but do you think I can find it now?) with taste-test results for different brands of dark chocolate. Hershey’s makes one called Special Dark. You probably remember this as the also-ran in the bag of miniatures, left to grow stale long after the Mr. Goodbars and Krackels were gone. (Except in my house, where Mom and I fought over them. We also fought over the Brazil nuts in the Chex Mix. Ah well.) Although it tends to get mediocre ratings nationwide, Special Dark tends to be the favored brand of dark in the region surrounding Hershey, PA. Whether they actually like it, or pretend to out of unfailing loyalty, I can’t say for certain, but if you know any Steelers fans, you’ll likely lean to the latter theory. Because those people are in their own special category of uniquely nutzoid. Green Bay and Dallas fans have NOTHING on loyalty next to Steelers fans. Nada. Zip.

Usually, I brew my own coffee at home. I justify my addiction by supporting small farmers and/or local businesses while I’m getting my fix. (Shout out to Velasquez Family Coffee, who delivers my monthly ~~prescription~~ subscription of beautifully delicious beans. African Cinnamon is da bomb, but they’re all excellent. Trust me.)

But if I’m on the road, and there’s no Dunkin’ available, I will happily hit the local fill station for my morning boost. No matter how questionable the store appears, the coffee there HAS to be better than what I’ll find at Starbucks.

Ah, Starbucks. The one chain coffee I canNOT stomach.

This isn’t a political statement, nor is it a protest against the overpriced blended dessert drinks made-to-order with a brutally bastardized handwritten approximation of your first name.

It’s simply because THEIR COFFEE IS TERRIBLE.

Aficionados of the swill will claim, with their noses pointed high, “it’s DARK roast…you must not like coffee that dark and robust.” I raise my pinky delicately <snort> and call BS on y’all. Folks, it’s not “dark roast” any more than charcoal is ebony wood, or broken glass looks JUST LIKE diamonds. The Emperor is naked – in the name of decency, grab a tarp to cover the floppy bits. THAT SHIZ IS BURNT YO.

The last time I voluntarily drank a cup of Starbucks coffee was in 2005. I had to make a long drive, and it was early in the morning on a holiday and I was bone-tired. I was heading into a rural area (read: nothing open, not even gas stations) and, out of desperation, made a regrettable decision – I pulled into Starbucks to grab a small cup. Just a little, to get me through the drive. I mean, it was either that or headbob my way into swerving offroad through the forest.

I did what I had to do. I knew it wouldn’t be great, but how bad could it be? I needed it, right?

I selected something called Christmas Blend. Gamely, I raised the cup to my lips. My sophisticated tasting palate has identified the composition of this brew, just in case you’d like to replicate it at home:

Chop down a pine tree.
Let it rot in your backyard for approximately 12 months.
Burn it to ashes (be sure to leave the dead bugs, dog hair, and bird droppings!) Grind well.
Pour hot water over the whole thing and drink up.

Halfway through the cup, I gave up and chucked it out the window. And probably killed an endangered turtle or something.

My aversion to Starbucks has gotten so bad that the very smell of it triggers my gag reflex. It’s like morning sickness all over again, when the smell of the fireplace, of all things, sent me on a frenzied sprint to find a bathroom. (Hmm. Fireplace = burnt wood. Coincidence? I THINK NOT, Starbucks. I. Think. Not.)

If Starbucks is the only option available, I will actually make the risky and painful decision to <gasp> FOREGO coffee, even when I desperately need it (read: mornings with boring meetings, mornings when I didn’t get much sleep, mornings in general, and mornings on days of the week ending in Y.)

I’ve attended enough local seminars to know which hotels have the hazard placard on the silver vat of caffeine:

Image obviously from http://www.starbucks.com

(Dear Hilton: I used to be an HHonors Diamond member. DIAMOND. THIS IS HOW YOU THANK ME?)

Thankfully, Starbucks hasn’t ruined tea. Yet. So that’s still a relatively safe bet if you’re stuck in an endless meeting and can’t get out to bring your own. It’s a poor substitute, true, but it might be just enough caffeine to keep you on the left side of regrettable decisions that get you fired, arrested, or both.

Of course, that might be a super effective way to get banned from meetings for a while.

One more and I PROMISE we’ll be done with this.

I pass the torch to Lauren Hayley at Madness, Sparkle, and Creative Flair. She’s pretty busy but I suspect she has a lot to say, too. 🙂

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