I am thankful today to have not one, but two, nominations from the gracious Chelise at Caterpillar to Butterfly. I’m thankful because these awards and challenges give me something different to think about – and therefore WRITE about. They give the repetitive, demanding voices in my head a new sound bite to discuss. They’re a nice respite from thinking simultaneously about how fat I am and WHAT IS THERE TO FREAKING EAT IN THIS PLACE YO
This first nomination was super-sweet of Chelise, because while I’ve been trying to pull myself out of a lifetime of food issues, and sometimes I feel like I’m making progress, it’s certainly not been a beeline target. More often, on good days, it’s like I’ve been sitting on a precarious perch in a dunk tank, blissfully oblivious to the pool of denial swirling below me, until life lobs a hefty, matted tennis ball squarely at the target, sending me plunging back into the muck and leaving me to clutch at any floating debris I can find. Sometimes it’s a life preserver; others, it’s a crocodile.
Two steps forward, one step back, and sometimes, all we can do is keep treading water and looking for a safer buoy to cling to.
But that’s what makes us courageous – it’s the ability to keep going. It’s what gets us through the day, worn and weary, but alive. It enables us to get out of bed the next day to face the same demons and confront the same pain.
Yeah, sure, some days we don’t actually GET out of bed. And that’s OK – because we’re doing we need to do to recharge for the next battle. We’re still breathing. We’re still alive.
Courage doesn’t mean you don’t rest. Being brave doesn’t mean you don’t admit you’re tired. I mean, even heroes need to take a break from saving the planet once in a while.
Being strong just means you don’t quit. Every valiant knight and crusader has felt fear – they just haven’t let it stop them. And sure, occasionally the bad guys – anxiety, fear, hopelessness – temporarily take us down, but the joke’s on them, because we’re slowly, gradually learning from each and every battle, bruise, and scar just how to throw a carefully placed sucker punch right back.
There are a lot of folks on WordPress who struggle with a variety of things. In reading the challenges of others, you see incredible strength. It’s inspiring. It’s contagious. You also see the heartache – the beauty and the pain in the raw, unfiltered honesty. And that’s where we all support each other – if we all lean on each other in a circle, nobody falls down. (Or we all fall down. Especially if wine was involved. But at least we do it together. And it would be freakin’ hilarious, as long as no one spills the wine.)
The “Courage to Change” Award
- I want to acknowledge that it takes courage to put ourselves out there for the world to see.
- It takes courage to work through the pain that binds us.
- It takes courage to make changes in our lives.
- It takes courage to leave behind everything you have always known (mentally, emotionally & sometime physically) and do things differently.
- the ability to do something that frightens one
- strength in the face of pain or grief
The guidelines for this award:
- Award it to whomever you chose and let them know
- No questions to ask
- No questions to answer
- If you receive the award, there is nothing you have to do but KNOW others support and believe in you! However, I hope you to pay it forward and encourage someone who is on their own personal journey to freedom (from whatever they may be struggling with).
My picks for the “Courage to Change” Award:
Nikki at Undiagnosed Warrior and Cass at Indisposed and Undiagnosed – these two young, strong women are very talented writers who have been kind enough to share their quests to get diagnoses for debilitating, undiagnosed illnesses. Their strength, their perseverance, and their tenacity as they struggle to get well are amazing. They are brave and show continued courage.
Zoé at gathering the pieces of me – I have said it before; this is some of the best writing you’ll read online. Her writing is art; it’s poetry, and it’s raw and beautiful. She has been incredibly inspiring as she outlines her struggles to be well.
THANK YOU, ladies, for putting it out there. You help me, you help countless others – you make WordPress a better, richer place. We’re all in this together – lean over when you need to. I pray for peace, healing, and laughter for you every day!
Next up: The Love/Hate Blogger Challenge! (Thankfully. I can only take so much of this warm and fuzzy goo. Tree’s dry, no more sap for awhile.) 😉